Hey Amanda
I'm fairly new here and feel odly connected to you (you were the first person to respond to my first thread when I was worried about Charlie).
I've only just seen this and am totally gutted for you...I'm wiping the tears away as I type.
You are full of life and passion and this forum would not be the same without you. Don't give up, please. You clearly loved Leo and would have done anything for him. I can't find the right words to convey what I'm feeling but I just know that you are a special lady who deserves to have had a happier ending than this.
Take care of you
Claire
xx