In Memory of my beautiful girl, the one who taught me so much... Hope

[Angelwolf]

So yesterday, when I took Hope into the vet for the RI I learned during the fall she likely broke her jaw. Her entire front half of her lower jaw was broken. She would have been unable to eat on her own. She would have needed me to force feed and give her two different medications at least two times a day. So I talked with the vet. I decided on that visit to put her down. Going through that would have been to painful and though I loved her like crazy... that's why I put her down. I loved her too much to put her through so much pain for months on end.

So here's to Hope, here's to those two years she taught me so much about not only chameleon care but loving life and being persistent. The last year and half she was with me she no longer acted like a sick chameleon like she did during her first six months. The years she was with me she knew love (though she probably didn't care XD), she knew sunshine, she knew the awesomeness of a huge variety of feeders, and what it was like to have a nice long mist. She was amazing

I am getting her cremated. Which is the first time I have done it with any of my animals. though I plan to do it with Dewey (my first service dog) as well. It just felt right with her. I feel like I will put maybe a couple pinches of her ashes in a foresty trail near me. So she can constantly be in a tree like she was supposed to. At the moment I am a bit torn up, still grieving harder than I have in a while. But soon I know her cage will be full again (after cleaning), with someone else who needs it.

Good night sweet Hope, hopefully in your next life you are once again free.

I am so sorry for your loss! As I read through your post, my heart was literally breaking for you! I carry some of my dog's ashes in a small glass bottle, around my neck. I made a promise to her, a very long time ago, that we would be together again, and sadly, it has to be in the form of ashes, but I feel like she is still with me, every day. So it helps to make it just a little easier, but I still miss her, every day! I will keep you in my thoughts. <<HUGS>>