I am so frustrated and angry with myself

[Andee]

I start feeling like a flake when my depression hits or the nerve pain gets in the way, or generally when life decides to swallow me whole and before I know it I have lost two days and I literally don't remember the passed 48 hours. I don't know when my memory got this bad, it happened this last week. I at least used to remember what I had to do for the day usually. Now I have lusts and alarms up the wazoo and still I forget things left and right. I think I am somehow sleep deprived. But sleep has been elusive. And I just can't stop chipping away at my self confidence. For so long I thought I had things under control and now I am barely holding on again. I miss the days when my own mind was easier to ignore and the constant berating of my own thoughts. Ugh idk why I am typing this here... It just feels right sometimes and every where else I get flak.

 

[leedragon]

sorry ma, start just by taking a Deep breath and focus on things that can be helped. maybe styck notes and check lists. mobiles notes with alarms. try some fat fish food and good night´s sleep. it helps. atleas it does for me. try see a doctor so maybe he can runs some test of what you may be missing.

 

[Twitchet]

Sorry to hear that Andee, You are such a positive member here, always so willing to help and are relied on by so many for your advice, I hope you can focus on the all good you do- that can only come from a good person.
Keep strong!

 

[kinyonga]

One step at a time... again Andee. You can do it!

 

[Andee]

I feel like I am going up and down too much lately, no stability right now.

 

[Katacara]

I'm so sorry your feeling this way! I go through the same kinds of things as you know, maybe it's something in the air, because I have been starting to feel this way to. Just know that we you!! I will be thinking of you! I would not have gotten this far in both my keeping skills, or my feeders without you!!

 

[leedragon]

I feel like I am going up and down too much lately, no stability right now.

I feel like that sometimes. if you can get outdoors try to do so. being in nature helps to calm down.

 

[Andee]

I agree, but I walk dogs almost every day during the week days, sometimes for 2+ hours, but I also find meditation to be helpful, I found a specific app I downloaded to help me focus on mental wellness.

 

[jannb]

I know what you mean. It’s been crazy here lately since the hurricane. Seeing all the devastation and hearing people’s sad stories.

Feel better soon, Amber.

 

[leedragon]

good man, focus on that.