little leaf
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I am very sad to say, he did not make it- he passed away on Dec. 31 @ 3:46 pm - I did cpr, and got him back for about 10 min, but with an irregular heart beat - and then lost the beat again, and decided not to do more cpr - just to let him rest
I feel just sick about it - it took me this long just to post it , but we knew he was in real trouble from the start - we had put him on an sal/ IV drip piggybacked w/ a nark/ drip for pain, and also so I could give the antibiotics thew the port instead of having to poke him so many times, he seemed like he was getting better, even sat up for his sponge bath just a few hrs before he passed away- normally I would have to let him lay down- but then he just crashed , I dont know what happened - just glad he can rest now.
My cham, and now him~ I am SERIOUSLY doubting doing this type of thing- it breaks my heart - I am "the last stop" for many of these guys as I do not work (only at Tax time) , and can do 24hr care, they do not plan for many I get to make it, but most do...until latley- I told my friend I feel like the grim reaper lately, like a death house - but she told me dont think of it that way, think of it as a hospice house- not one of these little guys died alone, each one was held as it passed away - so I guess that is one good thing, each one passed over the bridge in loving hands ( and a shower of tears ! ) but not alone. she also reminded me , "Toby's kitten" is doing great after getting him @ 9 days old, found on a sidewalk in the freezing cold, sick as a dog, well, cat- and beating a nasty RI - so maybe I will keep at it, but really have to think about it. The pic is of him a few days after he got here, but before the IV stuff was started
I feel just sick about it - it took me this long just to post it , but we knew he was in real trouble from the start - we had put him on an sal/ IV drip piggybacked w/ a nark/ drip for pain, and also so I could give the antibiotics thew the port instead of having to poke him so many times, he seemed like he was getting better, even sat up for his sponge bath just a few hrs before he passed away- normally I would have to let him lay down- but then he just crashed , I dont know what happened - just glad he can rest now.
My cham, and now him~ I am SERIOUSLY doubting doing this type of thing- it breaks my heart - I am "the last stop" for many of these guys as I do not work (only at Tax time) , and can do 24hr care, they do not plan for many I get to make it, but most do...until latley- I told my friend I feel like the grim reaper lately, like a death house - but she told me dont think of it that way, think of it as a hospice house- not one of these little guys died alone, each one was held as it passed away - so I guess that is one good thing, each one passed over the bridge in loving hands ( and a shower of tears ! ) but not alone. she also reminded me , "Toby's kitten" is doing great after getting him @ 9 days old, found on a sidewalk in the freezing cold, sick as a dog, well, cat- and beating a nasty RI - so maybe I will keep at it, but really have to think about it. The pic is of him a few days after he got here, but before the IV stuff was started